Tuesday, March 22, 2005

If I Would, Could You?

I've decided to stop it with the song titles for a while and go to lyrics. Lyrics say so much more than song titles. Today's particular lyric has nothing to do with this blog entry. I just really enjoy the song and like that Alice in Chains ended it this way. You don't hear many songs that end with a question like that. By the way, for those of you who don't know, this is from Would? by Alice in Chains.

Things seem to be looking up in Hizzyville. My car was sick, but is much better now. I was sick, but I am much better now. Nix was sick, but he's much better now. Seems that sickness has been a constant in my life for the last month or so. I'm glad it's over, really. Sick is depressing.

I had a really good weekend. The highlight of it was getting to go to the grocery store and get provisions. I now have lots of yummy food.

Speaking of food, I need to lose about 10 lbs. I need to start walking again. I'd join a gym, but I just don't have that kind of money. I was going well losing weight, but then I just got lazy and started eating Jack in the Box a lot. That'll put the pounds on anyone, except Beaver. The dude lives on JITB and doesn't gain a pound. I don't think Beaver can get fat. I wish I had his metabolic rate.

Speaking of money, I'm thisclose to having all my bills paid. And I got a grand plus back from my federal income taxes. Go me. Having money in savings is good.

I am the proud owner of a plant now. I forget what kind of plant it is. My mom told me. But it's little and cool and gives my kitchen some life.

Things seem to be looking up in the Scarlet Whore camp. We have procured a new lead singer named Jarrod. He's a good guy, very loyal to the band, and such a departure vocally from Erk. Our first show back is Friday and I am expecting quite a huge turnout. The last 2 times I've been to this club, it's been pretty full. Kids in Wentzville don't have anything else to do on a Friday night.

The news has been pissing me off lately. Yep, I'm complaining. Fuck you. We have a war going on, children are starving on our streets, we may not have Social Security in 20 years, gas prices are through the roof and what is Congress concerned about? Juiced up millionaires. Frankly, I don't care if Mark McGwire did steroids. If he did, fuck him. He's a cheater. If he didn't, then shut up about it. But does Congress really need to take a stand? Congress has much more important things to focus on.

And this Terri Schaivo thing. GIve me a goddamned break. I'm not even going to get into this one. I'm liable to rant all night and into tomorrow morning. All I will say is this...make a living will, go to the bank, get it notarized, and have 2 witnesses sign it in front of the notary. Make your requests known. Who knows when you're gonna be put in a situation where one of your family members has to decide your fate and you don't have any legal declaration of your wishes. It will save everyone a lot of trouble and ultimately, your wishes will be honored.

I'd really like to thank everyone for participating in my little March Music Mayhem thing on the Bugjuice board. The best is yet to come. Rumour has it, there may be a prize in it at the end for someone.

I'd like to introduce a NEW feature to the Hizzblog. I'm going to put a disclaimer on this right now. This is exclusive to my blog and my blog alone. If anyone steals this, I'm going to be very angry. VERY angry. This was my idea and I would like to be able to keep it that way. Thank you.

Ponder This:
If God dropped acid, would he see people?
If you try to fail, and you succeed, which have you done?

HIZZ

Musical Accompaniment : "Southern Man" by Neil Young
A Place to Go : Subservient Chicken - make a man in a chicken suit do whatever you ask him.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Blind

Featured song title is by Korn
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Yep, you heard it right, folks. Blind. I'm blind. Well, not exactly. Ok, let me shut up and explain. I broke my glasses today. I stepped on them and snapped the frame in two. The lenses are fine, but I wasn't about to tape them together. Thank god I have contacts. Guess who's warranty on her glasses ran out in February -- MINE! It's okay. New frames are only gonna cost me about 30 bucks. I'm gonna go get it all taken care of tomorrow and should have new frames by this time next week. I'm so retarded.

I took some pretty pictures of myself today. I needed them for my MySpace page. No, they're not dirty pics, you pervs. Just face pics. And yes, the horns are being thrown. Did you expect anything less? I didn't think so.

I got a new bird feeder for all the little birdies outside of my apartment and wouldn't you know it, the fucker broke today. It was really windy here. It blew down from it's hanging position and the lid is now shattered. I'm gonna hoosier-rig it good though. Yes, I have a bird feeder. No, I don't care if you laugh at me. I'm such an old woman.

Rumour has it that Black Sabbath may be making a stop in the Lou on their US tour. I will post the date as soon as I get it.

I got my shoes for Toni and Erich's wedding. I love them. They're so cool looking. Makes me want to get dressed up just so I can wear them.

I think that's all.

Song of the Day : Hanzel und Gretyl --> SS Deathstar Supergalaktik
Link of the Day : Click here to find the Missouri Sex Offender Registry. Is there one in your neighborhood? (Coincidentally, there's one that lives in the next apartment building over from me). This is an exceptionally useful tool, esp. if you have children (though some of the people on here are rapists too)

Monday, March 07, 2005

Time for Livin'

**Time For Livin' is a song by the Beastie Boys. While the Beasties have fallen off in the last couple years, this still remains one of my all time favorite Beastie Boys songs.**

So I haven't updated lately. Sue me. Go ahead. I'm mainly doing this so Beaver will stop telling me to update my blog.

I think I'm back among the living. I was sick as a dog for about the last two weeks. It was a hellacious sickness, like the flu and a cold on top of each other. Fuck, I wanted to die. Thank god for good drugs. I like medicine that makes me sleepy. And I am such a trooper, I didn't miss a damn day of work. Go me! Making money and having drowsy medicine. WOO!!!! In the process, I got Nix sick though. He's getting much better. He's not mute anymore. I felt so bad, having gotten him sick. I really didn't mean to. It just happened.

My car is pretty much fucked, or at least on the way to being fucked. I most likely have a leaky head gasket, causing antifreeze to leak into the oil, thereby making the oil all ucky. I may have to take it to the dealership, rendering me carless for an indeterminate amount of time. Guess I should get a bus schedule, cause that's probably the only way my ass is getting to work. Yay! The bus! With hoosiers and crack addicts! I can't wait.

My band got pretty new pictures taken last night. They turned out well. Can't wait to see the cleaned-up product. In other news, this is an open call for people to come out and support local music on the 25th of this month at the Midwest Music Pit in Wentzville. It should be a good time. No wait, strike that. I WILL be a good time.

I think that's it. I've decided to kill the 'Word of the Day' idea. It's been done. It's tired. I give you --

MUSICAL HAPPENINGS OF THE DAY

Today is Your Birthday! -- March 6, 2004
David Gilmour (Pink Floyd) -- 59 years old today.
Steven Bier (Madonna Wayne Gacy of Marilyn Manson) -- 41 today

What happened in...?"
1825-Beethoven's Opus 127 (String Quartet #12) in E flat major was performed for the first time

1970 - The Beatles "Hey Jude" goes gold.

1970 - Charles Manson releases "Lie" to finance his defense in the Tate-LaBianca murders.

1975 - Led Zeppelin's "Physical Graffiti" goes gold.

2004 - David Crosby arrested and charged with criminal possession of a weapon and marijuana

There you have it and there you are!

HIZZY

Link of the Day : www.stupidvideos.com
Song of the Day : Kula Shaker - Tattva










Tuesday, February 15, 2005

I Want Candy

**I Want Candy is the most rockingest song in the world. It's by MC Chris, who voices the lovely singing voice of MC Pee Pants on Aqua Teen Hunger Force. I give I Want Candy 5 gigantic horns up**

I'm tired. I had a hard day today, with work and then a whopping 5 hours of school. Someone shoot me, for the love of god.

Nix is entering his shorts in the Tromadance Film Festival. It's pretty cool. Even if he doesn't win, it's still even cool to be considered for something like that.

I'd like to address something that's been on my mind for about a week now. Some of you may be well aware of some of the things going on between Beaver and Quill and Heather. It's a big mess. Now, I'm not going to sit here and defend Beaver's actions or try to justify why Steve and Heather are mad. I think all that is abundantly clear. What I am going to do is say, no wait, ask that everyone leave me the hell out of it. This means that if you call me, it better not be to talk about Steve or to talk about Beaver. Frankly, this shit happens every week. It's something different every time someone gets mad. I'm just really tired of hearing about it. I've got Beaver calling me 5 times a day to bitch about Steve and I've got Steve calling me almost every day to talk about how mad he is at Beaver or whatnot. I'm sick and fucking tired of it. I have too much on my own mind to be concerned with someone's views about something that I'm not even involved in, for once. I'm not saying don't call me, but you better have a better reason than to bitch about someone. I think there are a lot of people in this group who just really are getting sick of all this crap. How long can be beat this dead horse? Steve, if you don't want to be friends with Beaver, fine. Beaver, if that's how you feel about Steve and Heather, fine. I just don't want to hear it anymore. If you're gonna fight about it, fight about it. Just don't drag me into this.

End rant.

Ah, I feel better.

I'd like to introduce a new feature on the Hizzblog. I was tired of looking for fun links. Don't worry, they aren't gone forever. There will be an occasional fun link. However, lately I've felt like putting up a 'word of the day', me being the holder of a BA in English, it's fitting really.

I proudly present, the word of the day, for February 14, 2005

proclivity (pro-cliv-uh-tee) noun
an inclination or predisposition toward something; especially : a strong inherent inclination toward something objectionable

Example sentence : Beaver has had the proclivity for angering people lately

I am proclived to end this journal entry now. Happy Valentine's day
HIZZY

Monday, February 07, 2005

Fun, Fun, Fun

**Fun x 3 is by the Beach Boys. I grew up listening to oldies like this (thanks mom!). A pretty good song, definately not their best. 3 horns up**

Don't have a lot to write. I have a lot of things on my mind. I don't want to get into them on here. Too complicated.

I stole this from my friend Ross's journal over on Livejournal. You can find his journal here. He's good people.

I AM: a little sad, a little happy, a whole lotta stuff

I WANT: everyone to get along

I HAVE: a black car

I WISH: this fucking war would end

I HATE: anchovies and meatloaf

I MISS: Rancho at 2 am after a long night of drinking

I FEAR: rejection and spiders

I HEAR: a train

I SEARCH: for time to do everything I want to do

I LOVE: my family

I ACHE: in my neck

I WONDER: what's gonna happen next in The Drawing of the Three

I REGRET: not seizing opportunities when I had the chance

I ALWAYS: check my email before I go to bed

I DO NOT: exercise enough (I'm taking Ross's answer. It works)

I DANCE: only when I'm drunk or asked to

I SING:in my car and in my apartment.

I CRY: a lot lately

I AM NOT ALWAYS: the best person to tell a secret to

I WRITE: in 2 journals and my own uber-private one

I CONFUSE: that damn 'I before E except after C' thing

I NEED: a hug

I SHOULD: be doing homework

[ Yes or No .. ]

you keep a diary: yes, three

you like to cook: yeah, but I'm no good at it

you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes

you believe in love: yes

[ Do You .. ? ]

Have a(ny) crush(es): Yeah, he's lying asleep on my bed

Want to get married: maybe.

Get motion sickness: no

Think you're a health freak: no

Get along with your parents: pretty much

Like thunderstorms: yes yes yes

SIGN: Leo

NATURAL HAIR COLOR: medium brown

CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark/medium brown/reddish tint

EYE COLOR: green

BIRTHPLACE: St. Louis, MO

[ Favorites ]

NUMBER: 42

COLOR: black, dark blue, red

DAY: Friday

MONTH: August

SONG: Youthanasia by Megadeth. It's been my favorite for about 5 years.

FOOD: Manicotti

SEASON: Spring

SPORT: Baseball, hockey

DRINK: Dr. Pepper, tomato juice

[ Preferences ]

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Making out, but I do love to cuddle.

CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Chocolate milk

MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Dark

VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Chocolate

[ In the last 48 hours have you .. ]

CRIED? Yes

HELPED SOMEONE? Yes

BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes

GOTTEN SICK? No

GONE TO THE MOVIES? Yes

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? Yes

WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No.

TALKED TO AN EX? Yes

MISSED AN EX? Not really

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Yeah

HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Yeah, tried to.

MISSED SOMEONE? Yes

HUGGED SOMEONE? Yes

FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? Suprisingly, no

FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No

Name 10 bands you listen to: Slayer, Pantera, Bob Marley, Megadeth, Cryptopsy, Scarlet Whore, Shadows Fall, Pink Floyd, Neil Young, Agathodaimon

name 8 things you hate:
1. People who cut me off
2. Those damn Eharmony.com ads
3. not being able to travel
4. Poker, Extreme Poker, Extreme Celebrity Poker -- basically all the poker shit on TV
5. When people don't take me seriously
6. Being tired all the time
7. When I do something stupid
8. Not being able to write a decent story/poem

[ Would you ever .. ]

1. Eat a bug? Yes

2. Bungee jump? Yes.

3. Hang glide? Yes
.
4. Kill someone? Yeah, I think I would.

6. Kiss someone of the same sex? Done it.

7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? Maybe, but it'd take a lot of convincing

8. Parachute from a plane? Maybe

9. Walk on hot coals? Hmmm...perhaps

10. Go out with someone for their looks? Probably not.

11. For their reputation? Nope

12. Be a vegetarian? Can't. I'm Italian. We like meat

13. Wear plaid with stripes? Yeah

14. IM a stranger: Yeah

15. Sing karaoke? Yes, and I'm horrible at it

16. Get drunk? Not a lot lately.

17. Shoplift? Done it. Won't do it again.

18. Run a red light? Did it twice.

19. Star in a porn video? Nope

20. Dye your hair blue? Maybe not blue. Fire engine red would be nice.

21. Be on Survivor? No

22. Wear makeup in public? Yeah, I have and I would

23. NOT wear makeup in public? Yeah, I do it everyday.

24. Cheat on a test? I have never and will never.

25. Make someone cry? Not on purpose.Yeah

26. Call your math teacher a swear word? What math teacher? I've called several teachers swear words, but not to their faces.

27. Kick a baby? Nope

28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? Yeah

29. Cuss out a priest? Yeah, fucking pedophiles

30. Take a job as a janitor? Sure, I'm not too proud.

32. Stay up all through the night? Yeah

33. Drink straight espresso? No, I don't drink espresso

What an odd question to end on.

Couldn't have said it better myself, Ross.

Anyway, that's all for this episode. Stay tuned.

Bedtime,
HIZZY

Music - clickety click
Link - none today. I'm too lazy to look for one.

Friday, January 28, 2005

Ice Ice Baby

**It's by Vanilla Ice. It's damn catchy and I know most of the words (fuck you very much, early 90s radio), but it still sucks. One horn up, and a middle finger too**

I can hear little droplets of ice falling outside. It's sorta pretty sounding, until I think about getting to work tomorrow. Woo hoo, fun times. Before I go to bed tonight, I might go see the condition of my car -- whether or not I can even get in the motherfucker, if the windows are iced up. I'm really glad I didn't wash it. It would have been all in vain.

I'm such a fucking nerd. I'm doing schoolwork -- mainly reading, that's all we really do in grad school anyway -- on a fucking Friday night. Oh well, with the bad weather and me being in a dire financial state until I pay rent, it's probably all for the best.

You know, I really thought one of my classes was going to rape me up the ass. My professor is one of the hardest graduate instructors (reputed, at least) and the class seemed like it was going to be hard. Basically, it's the first 3/4 of my thesis. It's gonna be done in this class. I had no clue what I was doing, until I read the first chapter of the book. Now, I have several ideas about what my ARP (Action Research Project -- basically, a project we do at the end of the year that is the Ed. School's version of a thesis, only there is no thesis reading or defense. We essentially create and do a scientific study, with hypotheses and everything. It's hard to explain. Come over and read my syllabus if you want to know more) will be about. I'm not even a week into the class though, it's best not to put all my eggs in one basket. I'm not worried about the other class. Dr. Christensen is an exceptional teacher. I had her last semester and am used to her teaching style and her assignments. Not looking forward to the required fucking chapter reflections on every chapter though. It's busy work and a waste of my time. I'll still do them though, because an A looks a whole lot better than a B.

Okay, enough rambling about dorky stuff. Go ahead, call me a big nerd. I don't care.

Onto fun stuff.

I was going to put my Oscar picks up, but after looking over the list, I realized it would just turn into me ranting. I'll just post them at another time, once I have time to think about them. I still want to have an Oscar party though.

Nix comes home early early Monday morning. I can't wait. I miss him, but I hear that they're doing pretty okay in Texas, so at least that's going well.

This ice is picking up outside. I can hear it. It's pouring down ice. As bored as I am, I'm glad I'm inside. For those of you out in this shit, be safe, please.

I think that's all.

HIZZY

Music -- Schism by Tool
Link -- Text Arc -- one of the coolest websites I've seen in a long time. A really neat way to read. I encourage you all to check it out. It's really beautiful, actually.


Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Daddy

*Daddy is a song by Korn. They never do it live in concert because it makes Jonathan Davis cry like a little girl. I think it's a good song. 4 out of 5 metal horns*

Well, we got the results back on my dad. Nope, no stomach cancer. He has what is called Crohn's Disease (pronounced krones). It's an intestinal disease. Basically, my mom said it's like having measles, only on your intestines. It's not curable, but it's not fatal either. He has to take medicine. If you feel like researching it, go ahead. I just did some quick fact checking and it doesn't look pretty. Oh well, at least we know what's wrong with him and that he's not going to die. That's all I hoped for, really.

Nix leaves for texas today. Sad.

Amber moves this weekend. Happy.

Back at school this semester. Mixed.

That's all. I now return you to your regularly scheduled life, already in progress.

Everybody wang chung,
HIZZY

Link : CCFA.org (Crohn's disease information)
Music : type typpety type typpety type

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Found Out About You

**Found Out About You is by the Gin Blossoms. Anyone remember the Gin Blossoms? They were huge in the early 90s. What the hell is a Gin Blossom? Oh well, 3 out of 5 horns up**

Sadly, I found this on Jae's blog. But I liked it, so I leeched it.
It would be really nice if I could see this on other people's blogs too. Just a request.


x the things that you have done before, and repost.
( x) snuck out of the house
( x) gotten lost in your city/state
( x) saw a shooting star
(x ) been to any other countries besides the unitedstates
(x) had surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas (yes, it's called college--food runs at 4 am)
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
( x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( x) made out in an elevator
( x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
(x ) been skydiving
() broken a bone (sprains, but no breaks)
(x) been high
( x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x ) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist (once)
( ) done the splits
(x ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) had an IV
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
(x ) Been to Mexico
(x ) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show (like a trillion times)
(x ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi (love it)
( ) Been snowboarding
(x ) Met someone in person from the internet
(x ) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a moto cross show
( ) lost a child
( x) gone to college
( x) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) Threw up on a roller coaster (nope, just after I got off. Fuck you Tom's Twister @ Six Flags)
(x) Bored?

That's all.

Survey says,
HIZZY

Music : Heaven's a Lie by Lacuna Coil
Link : Yoda's website

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Down with the Sickness

**DWTS rules! Disturbed rules! 'Nuff said. 5 horns out of 5**

I recieved some disturbing news today. For those of you who may or may not know, my father is sick. He's been having stomach troubles for the past four months now. He's been to the doctors and they put him on some medication, but it isn't helping. He has to go in for a bunch of tests and scans and various other things. They found ulcers, but gave him medicine to kill the ulcers, but it didn't work, as I said. My grandfather died from stomach cancer within 6 months of being diagnosed. Granted, he also died from cirrhosis of the liver, but mainly stomach cancer. Let's hope things don't go that way for my dad.

Otherwise, things have been going pretty well of late for the Hizzy. Looks like the weather is finally gonna get warmer, at least for a little while.

Ordered my bridesmaid dress for Toni's wedding. It's pretty. I encourage you all to come see me wear a dress. It shall be THE spectator event of the year.

I really don't have much more to say. I'm really worried about my dad. I hope things go better for him and that he gets better. He's a cool guy sometimes and he's really a fun dude to talk to about history and stuff like that. I'm just worried, that's all.

Hope everyone is well.

HIZZY

Song : Estranged by Guns 'n' Roses
Link : www.godhatesshrimp.com (cause he does!)




Saturday, January 08, 2005

Let's Build a Snowman (and Make Him Our Best Friend)

**Lets Build a Snowman is a song from the excellent film Cannibal : The Musical. I encourage you all to rent Cannibal. It's hilarious. So is the snowman song. I've posted the lyrics below. I give Let's Build a Snowman 5 huge horns up.**

Let's Build a Snowman

Sometimes, the world is black.
And tears run from your eyes.
And maybe we'll all get really sick.
And maybe we'll all die.
So...

Let's build a snowman!
We can make him our best friend.
We can name him Tom or we can name him George!
We can make him tall, or we can make him not so tall.
Snowman!

He'll have a happy face, a happy smile, a happy point of view.
If you build me a snowman, then I'll build one for you.

So, let's build a snowman!
We can make him our best friend.
We can name him Bob or we can name him Beowulf!
We can make him tall, or we can make him not so tall.
Snowman!

Hey!
(Tapdance solo)

He'll have a happy face, a happy smile, a happy point of view.
If you build me a snowman, then I'll build one for you.
Snowman! Snowman! Snowman!


Short blog this time. I just want to say snow sucks and my apartment complex does too. Fucking hills. I couldn't get home tonight. Ended up sliding around on the hills for a while, Keenan and Chrissy had to come get me unstuck. My car is at Mom's, as we couldn't get to my apartment at all. I miss my car. I hate snow. Fuck it all. It is gonna suck going to work tomorrow. Goddammit.

Die snow die.
HIZZ

Music : ICP -- Southwest Voodoo


Friday, January 07, 2005

So Much to Say

**So Much to Say is by the Dave Matthews Band. Now, I know that DMB sucks really bad, but some of their songs have a nice groove, and besides, it just goes with the blog today. So Much to Say gets 2 horns out of 5.**

So Nix has gone to Jeff City for the weekend. I'm feelin' pretty lonely and down. However, I'm gonna go drown my sorrows in some friends tonight. Hopefully it will be a good time and I can smile a little.

@Amber -- sorry about all the shit going on with you. Congrats on the interview though!

I guess I can't complain though. I've had 3 glorious weeks of Nix being home. Besides, I'm glad he's back to work and making money. I hate to see him broke. Baby, if you're reading this, I'm thinking about you and I love you. Hang in there with Tommy. Where'd the cheese go at?

There's a guys night tomorrow. Supposed to be a drunken good sausage fest. I hope you all get good and drunk because if I find out that any one of you pussed out and didn't drink, there'll be hell to pay, Hizzy style.

I've been working on getting Scarlet Whore some gigs. Did a lot when I got home from work today. Hmmm...Scarlet Whore opening for Black Label Society @ Pops? That's what I'm shooting for. Either that or King Diamond or Danzig, bitch. I'm also looking at several other venues and a possible fest. Ah, the life of a manager, always exciting. There is also the possibility of a major Creepy Crawl show. I'll find out later this month.

I'd like to implore everyone to please visit the forums again. They are dying. How often do you guys watch movies or listen to music or do anything that would warrant a board post? Probably a lot. Come on people, this is a direct order :)

My cable is all fucked up. I"m gonna have to call tech support (read : stay on hold for hours and hours only to talk to someone in India, as is the case with computer tech support. Probably the same for cable). Now, I've been saying that I was gonna do it for about a week, just like adding wiper fluid to my car and framing the pic Amber drew for me. Eventually, everything will get done.

Bought Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle. You, over there, stop laughing. It's entertaining, brainless humor. And besides, you can't go wrong with NPH.

Wrote a new song on Acid. Right now, it's just called CoolSong. I wish I could post it on here so that you all could hear it. I'm trying to decide on titles right now. THe top 3 choices are "Scrote", "A Handle on Things" or "Bottom Line". I'm no good at titles. If it were up to me, everything would be labeled "Song 1" "Song 2" etc. Fucking Chemical Brothers already used Loops of Fury. Damn them.

I think that's all for now. Have fun, kids.
HIZZY

Tuneage : Black Label Society "The Blessed Hellride"

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

It's Oh So Quiet

**It's Oh So Quiet is a song by Bjork Gudmundsdottir -- aka Bjork. Now I know why she is just called Bjork. I don't mind Bjork actually. I think she's weird and she's from Iceland, a country I know nothing about. I like the song though. 4 horns out of 5.**

So yeah, it's quiet here. Nix is sleeping in the living room. Poor thing, so tired. I gave him a blanket to keep him warm. I hope he is sleeping well.

2 more days until another glorious 3 day weekend. Woo! Today one of our machines broke at work, so we have to close that treatment room off, meaning we're down to two. I know we're gonna get swamped on Thursday and I'm gonna fucking tear my hair out.

Got a futon today from Keenan. Good times. Hopefully it will provide more seating room at New Years and various other parties. Maybe I will actually get to sit on my couch for once. I always end up on the floor for some reason. Oh well, guess I have to be a good hostess and give my guests primo choice of seats. I can give up my couch for one evening.

Speaking of the New Years party, looks like everything is in order. As long as everyone cooperates, there should be no problem whatsoever. I love parties that go off without a hitch.

I thought I had more to say, guess I didn't.

Oh well. I updated.

HIZZY

Music -- clickety clickety click click
Link -- God Hates Shrimp


Sunday, December 19, 2004

It's My Job to Keep Punk Rock Elite

**IMJTKPRE is by a punk band called NoFX. They're a pretty decent punk band, a lot better than a lot of the newer "punk rock" bands I've heard in recent years. I give this 3 horns up out of 5***

T minus 5 hours and counting until the Scarlet Whore show. Is it wrong of me to just have an overall bad feeling about this show. I feel like something isn't right, but I can't put my finger on it. Maybe it's that it's fuckin' cold outside. That could be it.

T minus about 20 hours until Nix and Scott arrive back from Tex-ass. Can't wait to see Nix and just spend some quality time with him. I miss him.

4.0 GPA, baby! Eye am gud at skool.

I'm wearing my new skull hoody. It's nice and warm and really neato.

God, I really thought I had more to say. I had a whole mind full of stuff, but the minute I saw the blank white page, it all left me.

On that note, I bid you adieu until my next post.

Rock!
HIZZ

Music -- "Under the Bridge" Red Hot Chili Peppers
Linkage -- Bored.com -- fun shit to do online when you're bored

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Who Are You?

**Who Are You is by the amazingly cool rock band, The Who. Listen to more stuff from the Who. I think you'll like it. It's good classic rock**

I stole this from my friend Ross. Neither he nor I know where //series one went.

// series two - describe

-- Your heritage: Northern Italian from my dad's father's side (Cuggiono, Italy), Sicilian from my mother's father's side, German from my mother's mother's side, Irish from my dad's mother's side
-- The shoes you wore yesterday: Black tennis shoes with white stripes
-- Your hair: Brown. I think there's still some red in there.
-- Your fears: Spiders, death, intruders
-- Your perfect pizza: Pepperoni, green pepper, and extra sauce
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Wow. I guess I just want to succeed at everything I try. Maybe that's a fault

// series three - what is

-- Your most overused phrase on aim: NICE!
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "Fuck work"
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite/same sex: Eyes
-- Your best physical feature: I like my eyes and my ahir
-- Your bedtime: Usually 2-ish
-- Your greatest accomplishment: Graduating college and then having the guts and drive to go back

// series four - you prefer

-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: Single, but I do enjoy going out with the group
-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither. Orange Pekoe or Green Tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino -- french vanilla
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers, always boxers.

// series five - do you

-- Smoke: Like a fiend.
-- Cuss: Like a sailor.
-- Sing well: Absofuckinglutely not
-- Take a shower everyday: Always one, sometimes two.
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes, I have.
-- Want to go to college: Graduated, and then went back.
-- Liked high school: I loved high school.
-- Want to get married: Maybe someday.
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: Always. I type constantly at my job.
-- Believe in yourself: In some instances, yes. In other instances, absolutely not. I'm very self-deprecating at times.
-- Get motion sickness: Not really.
-- Think you're a health freak: Nope.
-- Get along with your parent(s): At times, yes.
-- Like thunderstorms: I love thunderstorms. They relax me. I think it's the sounds.
-- Play an instrument: I played clarinet in 5th grade and sucked. Haven't played since. Though I would like to learn how to play bass, piano, or guitar

// series six - in the past month, did/have you

-- Drank alcohol: Yep.
-- Done a drug: No
-- Made Out: Yes, I sure did.
-- Gone to the mall?: Yeah, had to go Christmas shopping
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. Oh the humanity, no.
-- Eaten sushi: Yes, sushi is the shizzle
-- Been on stage: Yeah, but didn't perform. Put down setlists and then helped the guys break their set down.
-- Been dumped: No.
-- Gone skating: No.
-- Made homemade cookies: Yep, and they were good.
-- Been in love: I'm getting there.
-- Gone skinny dipping: No. Fuck no.
-- Dyed your hair: Gonna do it eventually
-- Stolen anything: I stole a Sharpie from work.

// series seven - have you ever

-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yeah
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Of course I have
-- Been caught "doing something": Never ever been caught
-- Been called a tease: Never.
-- Got beaten up: When I was younger.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: I guess a few times.

// series eight - the future

-- Age you hope to be married: I guess by the time I"m 30 would be nice
-- Numbers and Names of Children: If I were to have kids, I really like the name Isabel(la) or Araya for a girl and Jeremiah for a boy.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: Something small, with close friends and family.
-- How do you want to die: In my sleep or something quick where I don't feel the pain.
-- Where you want to go to college: Nowhere, when I'm done with this, I'm done.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: I want to teach or travel the world with my band
-- What country would you most like to visit: I want to go to Italy, England, and Australia

// series nine – opposite/same sex

-- Best eye color?: Doesn't really matter. I like brown eyes and green eyes most though.
-- Best hair color?: Dark, must be dark.
-- Short or long hair?: Doesn't matter really.
-- Best height: Doesn't matter
-- Best weight: Weight doesn't really matter. It's really shallow to judge someone on weight.
-- Best articles of clothing: Fuck if I care.
-- Best first date location: Don't care.
-- Best first kiss location: The lips.

// series ten - number of

-- Number of boys/girls I have kissed: God, probably about 10
-- Number of boy/girlfriends I have had: Serious - 1 or 2. Not serious - about 7
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: One
-- Number of people I could trust with my life:3.
-- Number of CDs that I own: I have around 500 CDs (and over 5500 mp3s)
-- Number of foreign countries I have visited: One, Mexico
-- Number of states I have visited : Missouri, Illinois, New York, Pennsylvania, North Carolina, Louisiana, Tennessee--so 7
-- Number of piercings: 0. Had my eyebrow pierced when I was a freshman in college.
-- Number of scars on my body: 3 or 4
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: I regret not standing up for myself more often. I regret opening my mouth sometimes. I regret fucking up college my first year. Other than that, no regrets.

Friday, December 10, 2004

Cemetery Gates

**Cemetery Gates is by Pantera. How appropriate.**

Well, it's been 24+ hours since the metal world learned of the untimely death of Dimebag Darrell. I've had time to mull this over, cry about it, bitch about it, be sad, be nostalgic, be drunk. Every rockstar releases a statement when someone dies. What about us average people? Here is my statement.

I've never met Dimebag. Never sat with him and drank or smoked or done whatever. I've always wanted to sit down and pick his brain about music, let him know how much Pantera meant to me growing up a crazy metal chick in St. Louis. I'll never get that chance.

At least I was lucky enough to see Pantera live at Ozzfest 2000. Now granted, at the time, I had a mad crush on Phil "I've got frontman syndrome" Anselmo. But I was always drawn to Dime's amazing guitar crunches and riffs. That dude sure could play.

It's so weird talking about him in the past tense. For the last 36 hours, I've heard "He WAS a great guitarist" "When he WAS alive", etc. I don't think it's quite set in for a lot of us yet. The thought of there never being a Pantera reunion, another Damageplan album, or a show here in STL featuring Dime is a large idea to wrap one's head around.

I know a lot of my friends out there have no clue why I keep beating myself up over this. Imagine if a person you looked up to, that you idolized for so many years was taken from you in the most brutal of ways. Imagine the grief. The entire metal community, which I belong to, is reeling. Hold your smartass comments until we've had some time.

This makes me disgusted to be a human. The fact that another human being could so savagely kill someone makes me sick to my stomach. Dime was shot 6 times, point blank range, in the face, in front of his fans, his bandmates, and his brother. The one thing that sets me at ease in all this was that he died doing what he loved -- playing music, entertaining, shredding the fuck out.

I pray for the family of Nathan Gale, the gunman, that they will be able to come to terms with the fact that their now deceased son took the life of another man. However, I wish Gale an eternity of hellfire and pain. May he rot in the pits of hell for all eternity.

End statement.

December 19, Scarlet Whore will take the stage at Pops, with the spirit and memory of Dime in their hearts and minds. It will be a somber time. The band will be wearing black armbands in memory of Dime. I encourage you all to come out and support not only the band, but the memory of Dimebag. December 19 is for him, not for Scarlet Whore.

With that, I bid you all farewell for tonight. Tonight, tell someone close to you how much you love them. You never know what may happen.

HIZZ

Link : VinnieandDime.com
Sounds : Pantera "This Love" (is, was, and always will be my favorite Pantera song)

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Hollow

**Hollow is by Pantera. I don't need to say anymore**

Hollow

What's left inside him?
Don't he remember us?
Can't he believe me?
We seemed like brothers
Talked for hours last month
About what we wanna be
I sit now with his hand in mine
But I know he can't feel...
No one knows
What's done is done
It's as if he were dead
I'm close with his mother
And she cries endlessly
Lord how we miss him
At least what's remembered
It's so important to make best friends in life
But it's hard when my friend sits with blank expressions
No one knows
What's done is done
It's as if he were dead
He as hollow as I alone now
He as hollow as I alone
A shell of my friend
Just flesh and bone
There's no soul
He sees no love
I shake my fists at skies above
Mad at God
He as hollow as I converse
I wish he'd waken from this curse
Hear my words before it's through
I want to come in after you
My best friend
He as hollow as I alone


"Dimebag" Darrell Abbott
1964-2004

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Metal Militia

**Metal Militia is a song of of Metallica's 1982 album, Kill 'Em All. It's probably one of my favorite songs on that album, which marked the beginning of a long and prestigious career for everyone's favorite sellouts. Anyway, Metal Militia rocks. 5 mega big horns up out of 5. So concludes your music history lesson for the day. There are cookies and punch in the hallway. Help yourself**

There was a metal militia onstage at Pop's tonight. At the end of a dynamite show by all 4 bands, Conquest, the headliner, invited all the bands on stage. Conquest provided the instrumentation, while the other 12-15 other long haired metal dudes, including the guys in the Whore, rocked out to a 7 minute long (approx.) version of Seek & Destroy (which, coincidentally was alson on Kill 'Em All). It was like the St. Louis metal army had converged on Pops. It was one of those 'had to be there' sorta moments.

The guys in the Whore were soldiers too. A militia of 5, who conquered horrid sound problems at Pops (we lost Erk's vocals throughout most of Crawling Chaos). Then Sean's mic cut out. He had to share with Matt, who lives on the other side of the fucking stage. Thank god Sean has a wireless setup. It was terrible. The boys were so disappointed. However, they soldiered through it. That's a mistake that a band can't just cover up. Everyone could hear the sound problems. It wasn't the band's fault and people knew that. They didn't stop the set, they didn't let on that they were discouraged. They played their instruments throughout the entire mishap, Erk sang into a dead mic. They just kept going and for that, I am proud of them. The biggest show thus far of our entire career. Even with the technical difficulties, they persevered and played an almost flawless show.

I'm sitting here. It's 1:30 in the am. My feet hurt. I just took my contacts out. My calves hurt. I still have to take my makeup off. Changed into comfy clothes. Sitting back enjoying a raspberry ice tea and some Cheez-Its. Good dinner, yay! I have to work tomorrow. And sunday. Yeah, go ahead and laugh. Fucks.

Other than that, everything is peachy. I have 'Right Now' by Van Halen stuck in my head. It's been there since I was coming home from work at 3 this afternoon. It's been there all night. Fucking implantation of information in my cerebrum. Fuck you brain.

That's all. I have decided to add another fun thing to my blog, in addition to the music and the link. I am proud to give you, Hizzy's Thought of the Day. Ok, they're not really mine. I'm ripping them off from various humor sites, but still, they're interesting and sorta fun to think about.

HTOTD : Why do they put pictures of criminals up in post offices. What are we supposed to do, write these men? Why don't they put their pictures on postage stamps so mailmen can look for them while they deliver mail?

SOUNDS : Dave Matthews Band - "Don't Drink the Water" (and don't laugh at the Hizz, my Winamp is on shuffle and I didn't download this song. Yoda did. I copied his hard drive. Blame him.) I need that picture from Blender mag with Dave Matthews dressed an a Wookiee, so I can laugh hysterically everytime I see it. Go back to Endor, you freak. (and if you don't get the joke I'm making, you're more lame than I thought).

LINK : Dancing Bush.com -- make Dubya bust a move.

Nite,
HIZZ

Friday, December 03, 2004

Blinded by the Light

**BBTL is by Manfred Mann. It's been stuck in my head for the last 14 hours or so. Thanks a lot, Nix. I think this song is pretty decent. It's definately catchy, that's for fucking sure. I give Blinded by the Light 4 very emphatic horns up**

Greetings, readers! Welcome to another exciting (albeit delayed) installment of the Hizzblog. There's been a lot of really good stuff going on in my world lately. Hmmm...where to start.

1. The Whore is getting mentioned every hour on the hour in a KSHE promo spot for tomorrow's show. Good times.

2. Nix and I are still going strong. I'm really crazy about him. It was so great having him here with me over his break from work. I miss you baby. He' s in Texass for about 2 weeks. Yeah, I know. Texas. Exciting. Woo. Not really.

3. Plans for my high school reunion (another late event) are now seeming to roll a bit. I can't wait to see how many illegitimate children the skanks I went to school with had.

4. Congratulations to Epps on his promotion at Enterprise Rent A Car, PV on his new job, and Chuck on his new job. If you see any of these guys, buy them a beer.

5. Corey has testicular cancer. Dude, you're in my thoughts. Need a band to play a benefit show?

I think that's about it. I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving. Mine was really good. I got sleepy. Fucking tryptophane. Sorry about not updating this blog much. I've been quite the bizzy Hizzy lately. Work is kicking my ass, just keeps piling up on a daily basis. School is good. Got some final projects to work on this weekend. The Whore has 2 concerts this month, just a couple weeks apart, so I'm busy busy busy. I still love you all and haven't forgotten.

I think that's all for now.

I'm on the nighttrain,
HIZZ

Good sounds --> Otep "Blood Pigs"
Good places --> www.joecartoon.com

Friday, November 26, 2004

Cold

**Cold is by Static-X, off of the album Machine. It also appeared on the Queen of the Damned soundtrack. It's one of my favorite Static X songs. 4 horns up. So ends your daily music lesson from the Hizzy**

It's motherfuckin' cold outside. Goddamn winter. My least favorite season is upon us.

Things have been rather uneventful in the Hizzyworld these last few days. I have my wonderful mate Nix here with me. We've been having a good time, laughing and just being together. I love times like that.

I felt I owed you guys an update, hence this.

Couple things.
1. The choices part of the forum board is becoming increasingly more disgusting. I am refusing to vote until some better choices are put up, some that don't require me to think "I wouldn't do either because they're damn disgusting" or some actual realistic ones. Until then, I abstain.

2. Took Nix to my parents' house last night for some turkey. We both had a good time. I'm glad he came with me and got to meet my parents. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.

3. Something is going on and no one is telling me what it is. This has nothing to do with anyone who blogs regularly or anything. Another friend of mine. I wish people would realize that I'm not a blabbermouth anymore and come to me with their problems. I think I know what's going on, but I'm not too sure. It's got something to do with Amber and John, that's all I know. I'm worried about both of them, yet no one will tell me what's going on. Aaargh, so frustrating.

4. Nothing else really is going on. I have my health, money, and my Nix. Things are good.

Music : Nix is sleeping, so there is no music being played.
Link : I don't know. It's friday, do the usual thing.

HIZZY

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Never Named

**Never Named is a really excellent song by Soundgarden. No, not Audioslave. Soundgarden, who is tons cooler than Audioslave. Anyway, four horns up for this song**

I wasn't feeling particularly creative in the title department tonight, so I copped out. Hey, we're all entitled to an off night on the blogs.

I'm really worried about Sparkamus. He seems to have gotten his heart broken yet again. What is it with women treading all over him? I can't believe how bad some chicks treat him. Jesus christ, he's a human being. If you want to see why I'm worried about him, head over to gimbie.net -- you know shit's bad when there's a depressing poem and nothing else. Someone please go check on him. I'd call him, if my phone wasn't broken. It's shit like this that just makes me fucking scowl. Sparkamus is a great dude, I wish girls would fucking appreciate him. Well, person who was mean to him, you had a good thing going. A really good thing. Oh well, you blew it.

Had a pretty good night tonight. Went over to Pop's with Sean to pick up flyers. We got good billing on them. Then we headed to Crestwood and handed out flyers. One of the guys from the other band said to expect 300-400 people at this show. I can't wait. I'm gonna throw up before the show, I know I am. Nerves.

Work was fine. Nothing much up there.

My "check engine" light came on today, so that's the thing that's bothering me right now. Dad's gonna look at it for me tomorrow. Hopefully he can figure out what's wrong. Certainly don't want it dying on me on the fucking highway at 75 mph.

I miss Nix. Steve, this is your cue to make fun of me. However, I found something for him at Crestwood tonight. Thank god it was right out there where I could see it, would have missed it. Might go to the S. County store and pick it up before he gets into town.

Hizzy says : I ain't tellin'.

I made up a game tonight. It's really weird and I'm not sure anyone will participate. I was inspired by Ravenous. Scott, I may need a section on the board for it, as it's gonna work sorta like Juice Wars, only it won't last a trillion years. Hopefully I'll have the concept and the specs posted soon. Steve liked it. I really want it to work, so I'll try to discuss it with ya sometime.

Seems like all the forums are really taking off. I'm thinking of launching my own forum. KIDDING! That would be the most fucked forum in the world, full of bitching and metal stuff.

I think that's it. I'm gonna call Nix here in a little while and then go to bed. I have to work tomorrow. Fuck.

Later,
HIZZ

Pretty Sounds : Stormtroopers of Death : Kill Yourself
Linkage : somethingawful.com = Photoshop Phriday (yay! The obligatory Friday cop out link)